You are always at crossroads. Of faith, responsibilities, life. There's no proven formula to make decisions that will entirely satisfy any one person or a group of person. There's nothing I see that can satiate our greed.. The want for more.. And then the need for more. I don't know where life is heading at this point. But the horizon seems too hazy. There are decisions I want to make, but the process of it handicapped by societal conditioning of the people around.
I think to myself everyday and it brings me to a frenzy. What if? What if indoctrication didn't exist? Indoctrination of any kind.. Of religion, of culture, of values. What would life be if we didn't have to have to fit into an idea of perfect? A perfect daughter, perfect partner, perfect social being..?
It seems at times that its too much to give into. Like I need to break away. Somehow.. Sometime soon. But what if I have already fallen into their trap? Far beyond repair.. Or what if the life I'm carving is far beyond "righteousness" and it's just me who doesn't see it?
